I blog

and sometimes, I blog for other people's blogs.

Check out Urban Pancakes

Leave some lovin'

Hanging out with my bracelet buddy

I get to see my friend Danielle this week, and I am really excited! She is one of my longest known friends from So. Cal (since we were 20) and I hardly get to see her anymore. That may change soon, but, for now, I am relishing in the fact that we have a date soon!






Here's remembering Asians, waffles, dance offs, Pat Wu, pet stores, Rock of Love, naps, kitty dance, Mission Inn Crew, Hollywood Bowl, Damien Rice, Brazilians, wine bars, San Diego, fake names, and everything else we have come to know and love.

Lost/Frey

This song has helped me in my spiritual detox- second to the Bible, of course.

"You never left me no messages, you never sent me no letters...."

p.s. I love Sayid/Lost. I love Christ. I love seeing Him in all things.

yikes

If you follow the diet blog, check this:
Melting4Life
please leave feedback!

overcoming fears

I held a crab yesterday, for the first time- alive. I've held dead crabs, hermit crabs, and...yeah, snow crab legs at red lobster. I sold crabs at kings, raked them up clam digging back home in New England, and stepped over them in the oceans in Thailand. I've even eaten them whole (soft shell crab). Crabs have been a part of my life, and I've been terrified of them. I overcame my fear of crabs by holding a decorator crab at the little pier aquarium in Santa Barbara. He was cute, and really relaxed into my hand. It took me a while, but I finally went for it. Wow! What a feeling it is, to get past a fear- and how often do these opportunities present themselves?

challenge

It's time- January. Time to fund raise. I am offering a yoga series in the hopes of raising money (every bit counts!) for my missions work in Micronesia/Guam. I have my big meeting on Tuesday to get all the nitty gritty work done- to figure out everything I need, what I need to raise, where I stand. Wow. Two days. And just think....in 7 months I will be packing up and saying bye.

If you're reading this, please help me out any way possible. I want to work and offer exchanges for funds- it's gonna be hard for me to do the letter writing thing. And, of course, I need HUGE prayers. I'm scared, but know God brought me here and will carry me through this and across the Pacific Ocean.... wow.

Gran Torino

Great story about cultural barriers, unexpected relationships, and redemption . . .

definitely my second favorite movie of the past 365 days, and on my life list. Go see it.

Curious Case of benjamin Button

I've seen this twice already, and am buying it when it comes on DVD. And, I hardly ever go to the movies/am very picky.

yoga for beginners

Study this <3 it's under 4 minutes, and may come in handy very soon

not home yet

It's really depressing- bouncing from one family to another- especially during the holidays.


It takes me at least two days to adjust to being back with a part of the family. The first day is usually an arrival from driving or flying a long distance. I don't want to see or talk to anyone.


The second day is adjustment.


The third day, I am a little more settled, but still thinking about my own obligations.
(If I am up north, then half the time this is my last day, and I have to drive back home)


*At this point, people are wondering why I'm so cranky. I am on vacation.


The fourth day is catch up day. Who do I need to see.
(If I am on the east coast, its the day of making some people really happy or really upsetting others by not being able to fit them in)


Fourth+ days- family time. Who did I actually go visit? That's who I'm spending time with.


Last day- Great, I'm finally into a routine. I'm getting along great with whoever I'm visiting, and then it's time to go.


Then I get back and its adjustment time all over again-
Whoever picks me up or sees me first- I don't want to talk about where I went, what I did, or what you did while I was gone. Sorry, but can't it wait til the next day? Didn't I update my facebook a million times? I'll talk about it anyway. I'd rather disappear into a dark hole and come out when I'm actually adjusted back to my routine.



As much as I have acted my entire life like divorce is nothing, it really does suck. Living far from my family sucks too- but it's not like I'm the one who moved away from them. Initially yes, but then they moved somewhere else, too. Now, I don't even get to go home.





And, seriously, can't some of my friends just come see me? I live in Southern California. Come on- cheap vacay to so cal. Whatever.




How about...I master being in many places at once.





Or....I will just keep dealing with it.